An Open Letter To My First High School Girl Crush

Dear D,
I know you’ll probably never get to read this letter.. not that I want you to but Im still writing my feeling down because I want to let it all out. Honestly speaking, I thought we had a chance.. I thought we could be a thing.. until you got to know or instinctly thought I liked you and we had to talk it out and you told me you liked someone else. That “someone else” is dating one of your friends right now, wow. Anyways, we have had many awkward situations together. Sometimes I wished that I never had feelings for you because then we could’ve been close friends but can you blame a girl who’s just turning 17 this year? Nah you can’t probably. Even after rejecting me, you gave me mixed signals and you still are. I really want to know why you are doing this to me. Well, you did say sorry in January 2025 for treating me wrong and I forgave you.. but who and what made you apologise? Well right now, me and you are on “good” terms, casually taking on Instagram dms but I wanna know what’s going on in that head of yours while interacting with me. My friends tell me to get over you but I’m not able too. I guess it really was love. I still dream about you, dream about us being together. Two women with common interests in love.. cute right? But i dont know about that since you are not showing me clear signs. Well, there’s more i want to jot down but i dont want this letter to be that long, so I guess I’ll just end it here.

Yours Queerly,
S