An Open Letter To ‘m.j’

Dear m.j,
Almost a month is gonna be complete and I am yet to explore every petal you have to offer to this world. Don’t worry and don’t freak out this isn’t what you think it might be.

Are you disappointed? I hope not because I am sure you know how I feel , how I have been feeling. I am pretty open about it I think. But this letter is about you. How beautiful you are inside out. How fun you are to talk to. Time flies and I get an ache from just smiling at your texts. The stories u have to share , the things u tell me about your day.

You unexpectedly grew in fields of meadows. a sole flower ; daffodil just bright and shiny in the midst of all the green lush grass. I

am not sure what the future holds. I don’t even know if you’ll read this. Others might but since when I cared about others when all I care at the moment is whether you’ll read it or not.

You are an awesome person to be around. I am excited for our virtual date coming up. kinda nervous ngl , what if u realise I am a silly fool , not cool enough for u? ik u gonna get mad at this when I say it. which is why I am feeling things the way I shouldn’t feel.

IT HASNT EVEN BEEN A MONTH. holding myself accountable and back before I jump in this valley. Am I foolish? yea , will I hold myself back? Yes I will , am I embarrassed? hesitant to name wtv I m feeling well kinda. I am scared of myself. yk when things feel right but then u start doubting it and wonder what the hell happened and why I feel relaxed. this is what I feel atm. I appreciate you too much regardless of any future outcomes. yes I imagine us together but hey that’s upto me.

You are a great friend, a great kid to your parents,  an awesome partner and a beautiful human and I hope you never forget that. 

Take care of yourself m.j. 
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